Purple Dudette

No no I ain’t spontaneous, I need that security, prompt, calculation, rehearsal before I do anything!

Otherwise I start to sweat profusely, stutter, stammer, talk irrelevant things, I think it’s simply in my genes or is it something I should have developed by now?

All these years, all such moments, I have felt like a pathetic loser, face turns pale, uneasy on stomach, almost pukish, heart racing,standing stiff, friends pestering me to act on, it just isn’t a nice feeling, you start feeling like the whole world is seeing you naked

Is it why I am gifted with overthinking? Is it an adaptation technique!!